{my} super power

A week ago I was sitting in my boss's office, talking but nothing serious. She asked for my help in answering a few questions for an upcoming meeting. One of the questions was: What super power would you like to have?

I share my answer - multiplicity.

I would like to be able to clone, copy, whatever word you want to use - myself.

I would have a copy that goes to work at Cargill, who works hard and long hours -and provide lots of money to make life easier.

I would have a copy that does the chores like house cleaning, paying bills, grocery shopping, cooking, etc.

I would have a copy that I could use as needed for miscellaneous needs that weren't exciting to me.

Then there would be the real ME! Where would I go? I would be with my family, spending time with them. Really being there for them, as I should be. I would be about doing dedicated Kingdom work, even things the whole family could do together. I would hope these things would not be done in America.

So my super power dreams tell me where my heart wants to be - but in reality I am not.

Most days, it's hard to do the "things" I would want my copy to do; because I know how much my heart wants to do the heart "things". Yesterday was one of those days. Michael can attest to the fact I was a bit, okay, more than a bit emotional about this moment in our life.

I desire to be home more with my husband and my child. I desire to be doing meaningful Kingdom work. But right now, my place is working many hours at a non-Kingdom career to provide for our family.

Do any of you know how to grow money trees? That would solve a large percentage of my problem.

Psalms 37:4 has told me many time, Take delight in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. A few years ago my lovely mom-in-law wrote this to me in a letter when she knew I was having a hard time with this same issue - she is so wonderful at being a Godly example of a true woman. Some days/season of my life when I reflect on this verse -  I wonder if God is listening or if He really knows the desires of my heart. But then I am frequently reminded of the instruction before the promise. Is my delight in the Lord?

I am challenged that if my delight is in the Lord - my heart desires would be for Him only. I would or could take my eyes off the desire of what I want/hope/desire my life would look like. Not that being able to be a stay-at-home mom or being in full-time ministry or serving overseas are bad or contrary to God; but if THEY are the focus I have missed the mark, missed the goal.

I want my delight to be in the Lord. Some days are easier than other.